whoa, yeah, whoa

Tue, 10 Feb 2009 18:02:52 GMT

HA!
Live journal?

Wow its been quite awhile.
Just felt like writing without actually using a pen and journal.

My heart hurts so bad right now because i feel as if I'm losing my lover and my best friend. Every night and every morning my heart stops and stomach drops when i think about her. Its an actually pain. I love her so much, she has taught me what love really is. She is my line and pole that i need to fish. She is a faded photo book of my most crucial years. She is still my cute little girl that used to write me notes and leave them everywhere for me to find and enjoy. She is the girl sitting out on my roof in the morning sun taking it all in.

If destiny must take its brutal and unstoppable course then I will let it but I don't appreciate where it has started to lead lately.

I don't want anyone else.

A.

Sun, 11 Feb 2007 09:34:16 GMT

Not he

Not he speak to me of whats ahead and even whats before me
Not he speak of what this world meant to him, my age

I would ask, What was the glow that you felt while you held my mother
With the bare essentials, even in the Wilderness What was that love

What happened around you, and how did you act
What music Soundtracked your religious experiences and conclusions

What did your World really look like, now that I would understand
I would love for a conversations with you 'man to man' right now in my life(20)

I know if i hugged you today I would be taller than you
and you would be pround of that, same build though

You are close to me some days and farther the next
But you have given me the chance to be self made and live my live

I hold your name Keaveny very close to me and is very important
I promise to Suifce every generation after me with that name

Adam Patrick Robert McKeaveny
2007

..another magnificent thing to experience when you die

Paint Picture Here.

Sat, 22 Jul 2006 17:16:57 GMT

Its all pre programmed in us to search out for another
to have that feeling of home lying next to you
can you lose the program? can you search only to find yourself?

im lost in the thick brush lingering around my city
watching people go about their day with all good intentions and well being
i rome knowing that whatever happens minute by minute is happening
i stuggle to know what actions to fill those minutes of my days

Men are designed to create peace in the world
while Women are designed to create happiness
I have found peace in the beauty of this landscape we live in and the human beings around me that are
all created for companionship, adventure, learning, fighting, peace, love
I am not happy
............................................................................................................

A fish just needs water to swim in..

A.Fish

Al Capone

Thu, 13 Jul 2006 05:46:36 GMT

Lonely

and I figured out im going to have 7 kids

A town down

Mon, 26 Jun 2006 00:59:22 GMT

2 of my friends in a week.
Thats cute...

probably could've made it 3 or 4 if you tried....

c'mon

@

Sat, 24 Jun 2006 01:00:47 GMT

Move yourself he says

aaaasssddddsssaaaasssdddsssa

care

Eh?
(a)

Its what they say...

Sun, 07 May 2006 19:35:32 GMT

Surrender to the universe, to higher goals; ego sacrifice; compassion and empathy, selfless work; seeing the unity of all things; the ends of cycles, forming "seeds" for the next cycle of growth; spirit as individual dissolving back into pure spirit.

Mysticism, escape into the One; sees the unity, fails to make "normal" distinctions, often weak ego; victim, martyr, servant; tends to escapism, fantasy, drugs (especially alcohol), religion; very receptive, sensitive, even psychic; co-dependency, care-taking; withdrawn from the world; release from the world.

A.

Tue, 18 Apr 2006 06:49:30 GMT

I stand bare foot looking up at the stars as men do. as men centruies before me have done. the same relationship of universe and mind exsist... still making us glow inside. conscious of our surroundings. an upwards pull of moving foward.

I saw a shooting star and I wished for it All.

Materia Medica

Mon, 27 Mar 2006 04:57:00 GMT

Humans rome the earth with nothing but emotions to sort out

a thousand at once

im at the edge of the wind right now

FUCK!!!

nesisito mota

Dreams are where you figure it all out.

Wed, 25 Jan 2006 06:43:05 GMT

I wont spill it yet...

just had to get one in 2006

Sleeper

Tue, 15 Nov 2005 07:44:45 GMT

My lights in my harbor flicker out releasing its last ray
I have backed up and found comfort in my shelter and my land
I am out of order i'm gone for the season
My nook is hidden in the shadows

All is out to see. I'm home from sea

phone line. twisted tied

a.

T

Sun, 01 May 2005 20:25:46 GMT

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no other options...

Mon, 18 Apr 2005 03:29:20 GMT

the spindle of string comes undone in a weekend's time
I spent a long time winding that thing up tight so I wouldnt have to see it cascade again

you insisted that I thread it again
tie the needle to the end and watch me just to see if my eyes get any bigger

I keep my distance away from the sewing box, I keep away from your name in my phone book, locked up

You act the same, I act afraid
to open my heart again and creep into your warming skin
I cant get my mind in that rut again, please dont act like this didn't end

Drive to your real home, talk real on your real phone
dont tell me about your drunk nights, just make sure to turn on your headlights

I dont want to hear about the dress you wore, the boys name who tucked you in

Please just dont let me into the life that I am not a part of, all it does is make me drive faster and make me dead to the world.

Sgt. Adam Keaveny

full deck sitting in front of you with an empty chair to your right.

Sat, 02 Apr 2005 18:06:48 GMT

my sadness comes when my cards dont add up to be more than yours when your day is better than mine, filled with more people and more joy i usually fall short, at least in the place in the back of my mind i sketch horrible conclusions in the sand and sign them at the bottom as correct, checked by me its true right? every thought i have about it all feels right like i have it figured out maybe not talking to you anymore? so I dont see your hand, dont see how much your hand adds up to. cause I fold girl, you win. Make the next boy play, at least you wil be sitting at the same table as him, a lot closer than I was sitting. Hold him closer than you can with me, tell him the same things that made me excited. Make it count. It makes me hurt. dont say you will call and dont, you seriously dont know what that does to me. alright? thanks ADAM P KEAVENY

Tina... Get some ham.

Mon, 08 Nov 2004 00:27:46 GMT

Well I got my van back and there is no more loud tapping noise coming from it. I love vans.

When me and ken were talking the other night, the thing i remember the most and put into my life was "You have to be happy with yourself before you make anyone else happy." I find it very true and very worth knowing.

I had a pretty awesome weekend. Full of friends, music, love.

This web of confusion and stress is slowly going to untangle and get straightened out. Thank you to the people that have listened to me bitch.

knowing nothing is not better than knowing at all.

This has been Adam Keaveny not making any sense.

I love you.

Tue, 26 Oct 2004 04:29:19 GMT

Hows life Adam?

Funny you should ask cause right now its looking as good as a flat tire in a rainstorm.

Im not letting out what I really feel to anyone, not even myself. I don't give my self credit.

I worry and I think the worst and stick to it. I just make it the truth in my mind and let it destroy my day.

I need someone to help and I dont know how to ask cause I dont even know what I need help with. I dont feel special anymore,

I dont feel like anyone needs what I try so hard to give. I feel right below par with everyone.

Its the season, my town is cold, grey and dying and its hard to look at the brite side of things when there is no light

It finally hit me that she isnt coming home. I turned the porch light off and said goodnight.

10 months to make a man out of me. Ill say hi to the palm trees for you, they wont say it back.

719-233-6779 if thats your thing

Adam Patrick Keaveny "Boomhauer Tex"

Television on, Televsion off. Its just full of Violence and Love

Fri, 08 Oct 2004 02:39:01 GMT

I have to miss her birthday...
Thats what really kills me.

I wish I was superman but im not, im a boy who is in love and a boy that can only do so much.

"Arch your back and flip your hair, make eye contact so you know I care."

I do Kare.

Wed, 29 Sep 2004 04:30:22 GMT

I am here.

W
A
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T

Mellow Hello

Tue, 28 Sep 2004 23:17:56 GMT

Mellow Hello A poem by A. Keaveny

Her lover is Blue.

Their child is Green.

Shes takes the kids to school

and brings them home in the evening.

She is never late to light up our world

She paints a beautiful sun dress on my girl

She is strewn about our mountains in daisies

Her pedals are plucked to show that im crazy

She is the color of leaves changing their minds

She keeps us safe, she paints the road lines

She slows us down at busy roadways

She built a brick road to show Dorthy the way

i need everyones help on this

Sat, 28 Aug 2004 19:37:41 GMT

alright,

so korey is in jail up here in ft. collins.
his bail is $500.

i looking for anyone that is 21 that would sign on a bail bond and all they would have to pay is $85

or anyone that is under 21 who could raise any money for this.

i know this is prettyh far fetched but we are trying every possible option.

thanks everyone

719 233-6779

A. Keaveny
ft collins, colorado

Tall Tale From Texas

Sat, 21 Aug 2004 18:37:48 GMT

The new Fear Before The March of Flames songs are great!

Anyways, I got a Nice little saturday planned out.

holla?

last night was grand fun.

I love.

you

A. KEAVENY

check out my life...

Mon, 16 Aug 2004 17:28:10 GMT

www.purevolume.com/anovelform

Translucent

Mon, 28 Jun 2004 00:31:07 GMT

I need you like a dragonfly's wings need wind

I'm in Love

Adam Patrick Keaveny

"bit of the ol' Irish in me blood."

Thu, 03 Jun 2004 18:19:17 GMT

I want to go to Water World...

we can take the van...

who's with me?

a room for breathing.... breathing room

Tue, 01 Jun 2004 05:04:19 GMT

this is me with a pain in my stomach
this is me with a whole lot to say but cant find the time
this is me acting different the second part of the day
this is me wishing I had more time

here I am lonely for friends
here I am out of cash
here I am waiting for a call
here I am not thinking things through

all I can do is read and write
all I can do is think the worst
all I can do is trust my gut
all I can do is sleep this off

lost feelings of last summer are definetly blooming again and my fear and pain is back.

"But instead the radio marches parades at 4am
These anthems of hopeless heartache
Serve as a timeline of my life until I fail
In slow motion I watch you now cut the sail"

Adam P. Keaveny